Like a chestnut tree

Year 2018 was a preparatory year for me. I quit my job in a big city and moved to a much smaller city. Despite sending job applications to different places, only one accepted mine. And at the job interview, the manager said she already decided to hire me. So I moved to the city in June. What I did not know then was the Lord already decided on the task I needed to do there. On the day I left my old place, I saw in a dream a beautiful young woman in a yellow dress walking to me smiling. She looked very happy to see me. I thought that was a bit odd but did not think it was anything special.

After arriving at the city, I chose not to find a church in a hurry. In fact, I thought I was done with a church life. I was quite proud that I had enough knowledge. I continue to read the Bible and gained knowledge on theology online. Near the end of 2018, I came across a forum/blog/newspaper on theology and then I learned about the Covenant theology. Precisely speaking, it was the Active Obedience of Christ (AOC) that drew my attention. The issue started when someone wrote Christ had to keep the Law perfectly to be saved by God because He was a man. I thought, “Ha! Who would believe this?” Then I came to know it was tied to the theory called the Covenant theology. Then I looked deeply into its history. I was shocked. The original theory of the AOC was believed to have been written by Anselm of Canterbury. Some say it was from Aquinas. What the Reformed has taken is not the original. But it still has the original element in it.

I was angry and sad. How can theologians see Christ as a mere man? I learned more about the Covenant theology and the two natures of Christ. The merciful Lord led me to helpful resources that helped me understand the background of the theory. Soon the issue became an obsession. Then I understood why God was not pleased with the Protestant. They do not have leaders who can direct God’s people to the right direction.

Around that time, I understood Ephesians chapter 1. On the day that I understood the chapter, I was overjoyed. My heart was singing. But I was very sad that almost everyone hold the AOC. One night I was feeling very overwhelmed by the sadness and cried. God’s people are not fed. The food is rotten. I said, “Lord, I cannot do this. The root of the Covenant theology is too deep. It is too deep to be pulled out.” That night, I saw a beautiful plant (it looked like a kind of Hosta) beside a vine. I pulled it and saw that it had no root!

The Lord showed me that the Protestant is no better than the Roman Catholic through this theology. He answered my question that I asked in 2017. All the seminaries and theologians failed. They are unable to teach people about God because they made their own god.

Year 2018 was also a preparatory year for me because God made me join a Reformed church in 2019.

In 2018, I had a dream concerning two men. In the dream, I saw myself on an island. I felt like I was in a tropical/mediterranean island. But the island was very strange because it did not have a single plant/grass/tree. And it was so small that I could see the whole coast line from one spot. (A year later, I found the very island which is located in Dubai and it is called ‘the world’). The sun was beating on my skin so I knew I was on the earth. It was very sunny day and some people were enjoying the sand and the waves. In a distance, I saw a huge white cruise ship. And I admired the scene because I always wanted to have a cruise trip. Then a voice told me “They are going to Egypt, the land of the dead.” I was shocked. Egypt? Why not Babylon? The voice then said, “A storm is coming.” Then suddenly the sun disappeared and the sky got darkened. I jumped into the sea so that I could swim to a land. If I stayed on the island, I was sure I would be swept away. I can’t actually swim but in the dream I swam very well. I also saw two men swimming to the land, going the same direction as me. One on my left and the other on my right. The one on the right could swim and was strong. The one on the left was not so. He struggled and asked for help. I indicated the one on the right to help him. But without help the one on the left reached to the land. All he had to do was moving just one step forward to get out of the sea. But he still wanted help. I was afraid that he might pull me back to the sea so I refused. The stronger one helped him out.

Egypt is the OT symbolizes slavery. All men are slave to sin and are under the power of the devil because he accuses people day and night (Zech 3:1-10; Rev 12:10). Exodus symbolizes that God saved and saves His people from the death of sin. The Roman Catholic church at the time of the Reformation was pressing people hard with their traditions and rules. They also scared people of eternal hell and demanded their obedience to their church for salvation. The Reformed church got separated from the Catholic church crying out Sola Gratia. But the Lord is concerned that the Reformed churches now reject this. Therefore, many are willfully going back Egypt with pomp and pride.

Concerning these two men, I had other dreams. Then I knew they were about a new church (or a new system).

When I started to understand the Bible, I experienced some strange things. Some Bible verses got stuck to my head and were repeated over and over again until I grasp the meaning of it. I even made a document named ‘Bible verses from God’ in my computer. It is dated 8 May 2017.

I wrote earlier that Rom 3:11-18 drew my attention when I was about 6. I could not understand the word ‘righteous’ then. And I now understand that my understandings and dreams are connected to this word.

The first verse that got stuck to my head was Exodus 33:19.

And the LORD said, “I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the LORD, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.

The verse did not leave my head until I understood TULIP. Then, there were other verses. According to the document, they are:

Matthew 24:35; Mark 13:31; Luke 21:33

Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

John 15:16

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit–fruit that will last–and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you.

8 May 2017

Matthew 6:33-34

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Around that time, I had a dream. In the dream, I was wearing a white swim suit with two stripes. The colors of the stripes were green and blue. So white, green, and blue were all in the same suit. (Later I learned that a saint also takes up the three offices of Christ). It looked like I was in a tropical island and I went into a swimming pool. I was overjoyed that the water was so clean and the sun was so bright. Yet, the sun did not beat on my skin. Then I realized that my mother was in the pool but looked unhappy. She was in a black suit. There were other people. They were also wearing black suits. I shook my mother so that she would know she was in the clearest water and the brightest light. She then understood it and fully dived into the water and was overjoyed.

My mother, despite learning and studying the Reformed theology for long, did not have much joy as a Christian. One day I noticed that she had a book on Plato. I told her to throw it away because it is an abomination to God. (Those who have studied theology know that the Greek philosophy takes a significant role in theology. At that time, I did not know it.) I believe the sadness on her face in the dream was because of the impurity of theology that she learned. She was unhappy. A few months later, she understood why God hates human philosophies and threw it away.

I also had this experience in real life. I finished a long hours of work and was driving home. I was quite tired mentally and physically. Then I said, “What is the purpose of your life? What do you live for?” I was surprised that I spoke it out loud (I was alone in the car). I thought about the question and said, “…Jesus?” Then immediately I said, “That’s what you think as the right answer.” I was astounded by my answer. My mind was busy thinking why Jesus was not the answer. Honestly speaking, I said it because I felt like I should say it. I then suddenly I cried out “I must live for God’s sovereignty, God’s Kingdom and God’s people!” Immediately after I said it, I saw a lightning in the distance as if the answer was accepted.

As I grew up, all the churches have emphasized the man Jesus. I saw Jesus’s pictures and paintings everywhere in both the Catholic and the Protestant churches. I grew up singing that Jesus is good and I love Jesus. But in 2017, I realized that Jesus came for the Kingdom. From then on, my question was: “What is Kingdom?”

Many people and myself in the past go to a church and the church activities take a significant part in our lives. This church-focused life had one purpose – salvation. Subconsciously, we believe that being a member of a church can save us and we put Jesus’ picture in the forefront to sell this message. We believe in the system more than the one who gave the system. This is idolatry.

God wants His people to shift the focus from men-made church to Himself and His Kingdom.

In Feb 2021, I started to understand the Bible differently. Till then those dreams meant nothing. In his attempt to reform or change the situation, the minister of the Presbyterian church started a Bible reading program. And I joined it and read 4-5 chapters a day. And one morning, I realized that my understanding of the Bible changed. I thought, “How is it possible? Is this the work of the Holy Spirit?” I grew up thinking I had the Holy Spirit because all churches I went to made me think so. But the fundamental role of the Holy Spirit to teach God’s words. The Lord led me straight to the Reformed doctrines and it took me only a short time to understand TULIP. Then I realized the meanings of the dreams and why it was warning to the minister because he hated TULIP. I wrote an email to him five times and explained what each letter of TULIP meant each time in the hope God’s wrath won’t fall on him. Altogether the length was about 20 pages long. But the minister refused. And we left the church because my job at the church was done. Six months later I heard he lost his fight with the elders and left the church. The elders were not following the right doctrine. The church was their battle ground for power. They also did not care about God’s flock. But then most people going to that church did not care about God’s words. God let them do what they want to do. My mother said that was the scariest thing – God left them stay blind.

After having the dreams and understanding TULIP, I realized I was given a special gift. But I was not overjoyed. In fact, I was shocked, puzzled, and afraid because the task given to me was not going to bring me glory (in a worldly sense) but rather insults and humiliation. Most will neither listen nor understand what I write here. And recently it was shown in my dream that some may think my dreams are astonishing, but they will not change. This is also written in the Book of Jeremiah.

In between those four dreams, I had other dreams which I will describe in the next one. All dreams are related to the judgements on churches especially those who are supposed to defend the Five Solas and TULIP but are rebellious.

My mother learned the Reformed theology from a Presbyterian minister before she moved in with me. And I also went to the same church briefly in my youth. But I did not understand what he talked about. What I learned from him was the meaning of exodus in the redemptive history and Christ in the OT. He taught many students in the past and was (and is) a great admirer of Calvin. However, I did not come across the TULIP doctrine till 2017. Even if I did previously, my mind did neither hear nor understand it. In my 20s, after leaving his church, I went to a Pentecostal Baptist church. So it is obvious that I did not understand the doctrine of TULIP then.

When I noticed a sudden change in my understanding as I read the Bible, I wanted to get assurance that this was the work of the Spirit. The passage I was going to read that day was about the woman who anointed Christ before His death. I prayed to God and began to read. And I later looked up online and the interpretation of the passage was the same as Calvin’s. Then I read the first chapter of the first book of the Institute of the Christian Religion written by Calvin. Calvin wrote about the knowledge of God. I realized that was what changed in me – the knowledge of God. Then I googled and found information on the Reformation. There were some useful resources online. When I first heard about TULIP, I could not believe that there are the elect and the reprobate. But as I read the Book of John, the Book of Acts, and the Romans, I accepted that TULIP was orthodox.

Then my question was: “Why does God show me those dreams if there are Reformed churches who follow the orthodox doctrines and they have ministers and seminaries?”

The two black shepherd dogs and the two bulls were interpreted as the Roman Catholic and the Protestant. And I asked, “Lord, if they follow the Reformed doctrine, they must be doing well. They have got their seminaries, teachers, and ministers. They will speak as prophets. So I do not need to.” Around that time, I tried to enrol to a local Bible seminary thinking that was God’s will. Then I had this dream. I got onto a bus to go to a school. But the bus was a very old diesel bus. The diesel stench was so strong that I felt like vomiting. I had to get off. I decided to walk. But then it was a long journey so I stopped at a bakery where there were many fresh bread and pastries. I bought some and ate as I reached to the school. As I entered, I had to go through a test to get into. A teacher made me sing. And I was not that great but passed. There are more useful information on the Reformation and orthodox theology online than in seminaries. That is why the Lord invented the telecommunication starting with the Morse code. “What hath God wrought” (Num 23:23).

When I woke up and told my mother about the dream. She also dreams and foresaw the end of the Soviet Union in her dream when Gorbachev was quite popular. Her dreams are also related to churches. She said, “There is the school of the Holy Spirit.” And it started to make a sense. I understood why the Lord showed me the rebellious two animals, a mad mother (church) not feeding her children, wild animals causing much dust on a mountain (I think it was about the corruption of worship), opening a school and waiting for students in my dreams.

After leaving the Presbyterian church, we joined another. It was a small church with about 50 adult members. The minister taught the Reformed doctrines and also paid much attention to youth group. However, as a lazy student, I was not interested in learning. They looked too wordy to me and I was not interested in theology. But I started to read the Reformed doctrines.

In 2016, my mother moved in with me. She later told me someone told her to go to where I was living in her dream. After being away from a church for about 14 years, I decided to join a church just so that she could make some friends. It was a Presbyterian church. Where I was born had a lot of Presbyterian churches. I heard many Presbyterian missionaries came from America to my mother country but that particular denomination (south or north Presbytery) did not teach the Reformed doctrines. Therefore, I grew up without knowing there are Reformed doctrines. Church denominations mattered very little to me then because I knew nothing about theology despite going to different churches in my youth. I had a sense of religiousness but did not care to learn. But most importantly no one taught me or advised me to learn because all Christian friends around me did not know the important of reading the Bible. When I read, I read only a few verses or read one (often the shortest) Psalm.

On the first day of January 2017, we went to this Presbyterian church. Somehow it gave me a great joy in singing to God and listening to the sermon. And we quickly joined the church. Registering was very easy. All we needed to do was to fill a form. As time passed, I realized that God was very displeased with the church and the minister. And that was the very reason why I was sent to the church.

I saw a beautiful tree planted near the entrance of the church building. I still don’t know the name of the tree but it had purple leaves. The following Sunday, I noticed that it was completely cut off. I asked a gentleman at the entrance what had happened to the tree. He said, “Lighting hit it. So we had to cut it.” There is nothing strange about a tree hit by lightning and gets removed. However, I later understood the meaning of a tree in the Scriptures. It means a person, a church, or a nation/kingdom.

The dreams I had were related to the church and the minister but more widely, the whole Christian church on the earth.

The first dream happened just before we joined the church and I did not know that the dream was about the church when we joined. In the dream, I went into a bakery. I thought the cakes, bread, biscuits and even the cabinets looked old (not renewed). And there was a woman who put her whole face on a cake. She was eating it with her face buried in it. And I moved onto a display shelf, and I picked up a biscuit to buy but it was crumbling.

This is my interpretation of the dream. The bakery is the church but it has not been looked after and the food is stale. It offers cakes with high sugar and cream but little nutrition. There were people who stayed in the church because of the sweetness of cakes but did not know it had little nutrition.

In the second dream, I saw a fridge with rotten food in it. But rather than taking the food out first, I packed the fridge with fresh food. And a big chunk of rotten food fell by itself because pushing in the fresh food indirectly forced the rotten one to come out. Then I saw my father in white robe. I did not hear his voice but understood that he opened an institute to teach students. We were waiting for students. I realized that we were located on the second level of a building because I looked out of the window and realized we are above ground. I went out of the building and saw that two black bulls with many horns were fighting each other. They looked exactly the same in appearance and strength. They were on the other side of the fence. I went inside the fence because many people were there. They were very scared because of their fight. And they escaped to the other side where I was before. But even though they escaped the bulls no one went to my father’s school. I thought that was strange because we were waiting for students. I went back to the school and my friend gave me a green-colored coat. It is related to what situations the two systems were in and what God has decided to do.

In the third dream, I went to a sushi takeaway shop. But I brought a box with rotten sushi in it from my house, thinking I should be able to eat the rotten ones if I can mix with fresh ones. When I was about to put a fresh one into the box, the box fell on the floor. I felt embarrassed and I left the shop and went to a different one which sold fresh sushi. And this was realized when I joined another Presbyterian church a few months later. This dream was telling me I was not allowed to mix a rotten doctrine with a good doctrine.

In the fourth dream, I saw a mother who looked mentally sick and was walking around her babies with her hair down. But she was not doing her most important job – feeding. Her babies were in their cots crying because they were hungry. Then I saw a baby female lion on my left side went to them with milk bottle and fed them because her mother did not. On my right side, there was a male baby lion. Soon he was being chased by a mob of people. They were trying to kill him. He jumped on my arm and cried. Then I thought, “When he is fully grown, will I be able to manage him?” I took him to a bakery and left him on a sofa for him to recover. This dream showed me a mad mother as a church who does not feed her children.

Without knowing their meanings, I thought I could help the minister by telling him the dreams because I thought they may give him hope. He wanted to hear about them, and I told him except the first one. At that time, he had issues with the elders and deacons. The issues were not about doctrines but about management. (My mother later told me that no one fights over doctrinal issues these days because no one cares about them.) And on the day when I had the second dream, he made a critical error by rebuking a particular member at the pulpit after the service. Because of this, he was put under discipline, and it eventually made him leave. I cannot forget the facial expression on him when I told him the dreams. It turned out to be that the dreams were a warning. And it was an announcement of God’s judgement because he was not feeding God’s people. The minister was not the only bad one. It was symbolically shown so that what God thinks of the Protestant churches born out of 17th century England. About this I’ll talk more.

Born in a Roman Catholic family, I grew up learning about the story of Jesus. But my mother did not think the church quenched her thirst for truth and went to a Presbyterian church. In my youth, I followed my mother and went different churches. And now I see that they helped me to understand why God is angry at both the Roman Catholic church and the Protestant churches. However, my message is mainly to the Protestant (more precisely Reformed) churches just as God appointed some prophets to speak to the northern Israel and others to the Judah in the OT.

In my 20s and 30s, I did not go to any church. For more than a decade, I was away from a church life and thought I was satisfied. I hated going to any church because of various reasons. But I was not happy. I was depressed. While thinking I was free, I was a slave to sin.

My dream started in 2016. Later in 2017, my mother told me that my very first dream started when I was 5. And I told my dreams to the pastor (at that time we were going to a Presbyterian church). He told my mother that they (there were 12 dreams) were concerning churches in the last days and painted 12 paintings. I do not remember the dream, but I remember him and one of his paintings. His painting was about Adam, Eve, and the satan in one painting. He said the satan was jealous of them. My mother told me that I talked about a mountain. The pastor gave me my first Bible in English because I always ran to the book (but I could not read) whenever we visited him.

At age of 6, I came across Romans 3:11-18. This became my favorite passage without really knowing the meaning. I thought to myself “the Bible is not about what people say it is.” And my question was: “What is righteousness?” Around that time, I had a strange experience. Then I did not know much about the Book of Revelation. But I saw what was written in the book of Revelation in the sky. To my family, they were just clouds in unusual shapes. But that morning, I woke up and saw the clouds and was overjoyed. And I drew them on a sketchbook for about an hour. A few times my grandmother tried to bring me to the breakfast table, but I did not want to leave the balcony where I was observing the clouds. All my family members were very silent at breakfast when I talked about the saints, angels blowing trumpets, and the new Jerusalem in light. I could not understand why they were not overjoyed as I was.

But from then on, my life was not easy because I struggled between God and the world. By 2016, I was 35 and was living a sinful life and thought I was connected to God with a very thin thread which was about to break. I hardly understood the Bible and yet, I thought I had much knowledge about God.

In 2016, I had this dream which was a start of a series of dreams connected to God and His Kingdom. Even in my 20s, I had strange dreams. One was that I was crucified with Christ as one body. I woke up suddenly when I felt the nail going through my palm. However, having such dreams does not always enhance knowledge of God or is a proof of the work of the Holy Spirit. Knowledge of truth always comes from reading and understanding the Scriptures.

Everyone dreams but my mother said there are dreams that remain for long if they are from the Lord. This dream in 2016 was a strange one.

In the dream, I heard someone calling me from behind. It was a cold winter day. I saw the one who was calling me. He looked like a farmer. He did not say anything, but he looked unhappy. He showed me a summer vegetable on one hand and an autumn vegetable on the other. They looked dry to me. He showed them to me and looked like he was asking, “why is this so?” I in real life did not know why it was so. But I in the dream knew the answer. I pointed my finger to a mountain. And in the mountain, there were two black shepherd dogs facing each other. They did not look friendly to each other, but they were not fighting. They were not working and there was no sheep. And I turned away from the farmer and went inside the house. In the house, I heard my phone ringing. It was a phone call from my manager at work because she wanted me to come and work.

This is the record of what happened to my life as a Christian from year 2016. I began to understand God’s words in 2017, the 500th anniversary of the start of the Reformation. What I am writing may help you understand that God has started another reformation. And this is the third one as seen in my dream.

English is not my first language so please understand. Some may find my blog posts disturbing because I talk a lot about my dreams. Theses are very personal stories but they are also letters to Christians around the world.

In 2017, I had a turning point as a Christian and began to understand God’s words. And at the same time, I started to have dreams that are related to what would happen to churches around the world. In one of dreams, I saw myself as the church and what kind of wounds she has in her body. And this dream was fulfilled when I was diagnosed with an incurable blood cancer in 2021. My first symptom came on April 2021, the 500th anniversary of Luther’s appearance at the Diet of Worms.

It is believed that there is no more prophecy after the Revelation. It is true. All the prophecies are written in the Scriptures (Bible) and we do not need any more prophecies. However, it is also true that the Sovereign LORD does nothing without revealing his plan to His servants the prophets (Amos 3:7). Our generation is surrounded by various translations of the Bible and study aids. Yet, many of us do not read or study the Bible. And most importantly, there is not many who can teach. In the past, God appointed some people to be teachers and His words were preached to those who could not read. Now people choose not to read the Bible and the preachers do not proclaim God’s words accurately. Therefore, as in the Old Testament time, God sends some of us to let people know that God and His words are alive. My dreams are related to the Reformed churches (in other words the Protestant churches that hold the Reformed doctrines). It is an irony because the more educated you are the more you reject prophetic dreams. What I wrote here will be rejected and hated. Regardless, the one I fear is the Lord. May the Lord give me strength to endure insults. If we are given the same spirit, then we will have the same understanding.

All saints are prophets and therefore each of us is given tasks for the Kingdom of God. I am not talking about a kingdom on earth. Some of us have more knowledge according to the task given. There is nothing to boast about ourselves but we can boast the knowledge given to us by God according to Jer 9:24.

A reformation is a separation. The first reformation happened in when Christ died and rose again (Heb 9:10). The second one happened in 16th century. The third one is now and is coming. This one is very important. The old system will go.

The second reformation was beautiful but many have moved away from it. I saw why God is concerned and what He will do. This is the record of what I saw in my dreams, how they were fulfilled in real life, and how the Scriptures are connected to this.

It is true that everything has been told in the Scriptures.

This is the church’s plea – Take up and Read. Just as God told Augustine, pick up and read the Bible.